Peaceful

God.

Isn't it interesting that I try so hard to show love, but I feel like I don't know the first thing about it?

I feel like I don't even know what love really is, and on top of that that I even deserve it. I feel so sucky at showing it and especially to you. So much do I feel like I fall short of what you really deserve, and it wells up in my heart and makes me feel hopeless.

I focus on my wrongs, and about me, because that is what I have been taught to , either by others, or by my self.